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[redacted] you never write dear so i shan’t. [redacted] i am a dear to you aren’t i? a dik dik dear. no deer. no se. fuck. allow me to begin again.

[redacted] i’m sitting in norlin and there’s a yellow book on oscar wilde in front of me. i’m in on the joke and soon you’ll be in on the joke too.

[redacted] through the gaps in the shelves i see a book called dust of combat. [redacted] were you ever in combat? [redacted] whom did you fight? [redacted] is the fighting done now?[redacted] did you win?

[redacted] i am red today now and i wasn’t red today before. i am cherry red. [redacted] i am a cherry red mustang.

[[ darlin’ darlin’ darlin’ i fall to pieces when i’m with you, my cherries and wine, rosemary and thyme, and all of my peaches (are ruined) + caught up in my dreams and forgetting, i’ve been acting like armageddon ‘cause you, held me in your arms just a little too tight, that’s what i thought ]]

[redacted] you’re sitting in class tortured by your size. you want to be small like me but you’re so wide. wide and endless. moon. little moon (me).

[redacted] the filth of me of you smells like black opium and that’s why i wear it for you. [redacted] what do you wear for me? a dimpled blue spruce blanket? oh please let it be a smile.

[redacted] i’m afraid and shaking. [redacted] i’m shaking and cold. [redacted] i’m cold and afraid. [redacted] i’m singing and smoking and breathing glass now. [redacted] do you hear it?

[redacted] you’ve reduced me to a simmer. [redacted] fold me into your rice like an egg. [redacted] use chopsticks. [redacted] say itadakimasu before you eat.

[redacted] i want to be the ghost cat in your new home. [redacted] i want to put you whole and ripe into my mouth and hold you there in my cheeks. i want to go pop.

[redacted] i want to cry each time i hear the word cowboy. [redacted] i want you to meet my horse. [redacted] i want my horse to kick you in the teeth.

[redacted] i should write about other things that are not you. clean things. [redacted] i should write about my microwave.

cook time: 5 minutes and 52 seconds.